Life Poured Out iv
Conscience, Judas by Nikolai Ge
John 13:21-32 (CEV)
Jesus Tells What Will Happen to Him
21 After Jesus had said these things, he was deeply troubled and told his disciples, “I tell you for certain that one of you will betray me.” 22 They were confused about what he meant. And they just stared at each other.
23 Jesus’ favorite disciple was sitting next to him at the meal,24 and Simon motioned for that disciple to find out which one Jesus meant. 25 So the disciple leaned toward Jesus and asked, “Lord, which one of us are you talking about?”
26 Jesus answered, “I will dip this piece of bread in the sauce and give it to the one I was talking about.”
Then Jesus dipped the bread and gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot.[a] 27 Right then Satan took control of Judas.
Jesus said, “Judas, go quickly and do what you have to do.”28 No one at the meal understood what Jesus meant. 29 But because Judas was in charge of the money, some of them thought that Jesus had told him to buy something they needed for the festival. Others thought that Jesus had told him to give some money to the poor. 30 Judas took the piece of bread and went out.
It was already night.
The New Command
31 After Judas had gone, Jesus said:
Now the Son of Man will be given glory, and he will bring glory to God. 32 Then, after God is given glory because of him, God will bring glory to him, and God will do it very soon.
I know what is going to happen,
what you will do,
how you will respond
and yet I hope.
One of you,
one who I have lived so closely with,
shown God’s love,
his ways,
will betray me.
I had such hope.
I had hoped
that you would see God,
see his way of doing things,
want to be part of it,
part of him.
Yet you are about to choose otherwise.
For you know
it is you I am speaking of,
you who will go,
break faith,
be a part of my death.
I loved.
And you chose to walk away.
Away from all God is
and asks,
away
to those who want their own ways.
I hope.
You walk.
I love.
You betray.
I pour out my life
because,
because you betray me,
because I love you,
because I lam hope.
Pam's Perambulation 