Book Review: Struggling to be Holy – Judy Hirst

•October 24, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Struggling to Be Holy

This is a book on living life, and the realities of it, especially the struggles of day-to-day Christian living.  What it focusses on are

the threads of holiness which is rooted in our everyday experience (from the blurb)

The six reflections are entitled Hiding from God, Dealing with our Desires, The Gifts of Forgiveness, Paying Attention, Friendship, and Success and Failure.

The illustrations are good, from real life, so very easy to hang on to.  I found it all very sensible and practical – and helpful.  Judy Hirst clearly deals in real people.

I won’t go through the reflections one by one, but just highlight three points.

Reflection 2 is called

Dealing with Our Desires.

We are reminded that our desires are personal to each one of us, they are things that matter.  Our desires can energize us, whether accepted or denied, so we need to understand their substance (p45).

I want…

Desire is powerful and overwhelming (p46).  They show us what we truly yearn.  Which may be to counter not feeling ‘good enough’, or a lack of security, or a need to be loved (p47).  Whatever we discover the root of our desires to be,

If we keep paying attention to our desires rather than suppressing them, or simply indulging them, then we will begin to understand ourselves better.

Understand that we are made in the image of God who knows desire and desires us! (p47)

Our longing is actually to turn us to God, not away.

Reflection focusses on

The Gifts of Forgiveness

Hirst reminds me of part of my story.  She uses the analogy of a box, I have used a carpet, but the idea is the same. “Stuff” happens, and when we can’t face it we bury it, and one day we can no longer contain it and it overwhelms us.  Whether our problem with the box is that we ignore it, or are fixated on it, it can take over our life.  But we have to face the contents if we are to move on.  Not to keep raking them over, but to know the truth of them, and deal with it.

Reflection 6 looks at

Success and Failure.

Talking about Peter, Hirst reflects on his qualification to share the ministry of the ‘failed’ Messiah,

Peter did fail big time, but his failure did not cause him to doubt God, or to reject God, or blame God.  Rather his failure led him to learn the extent of God’s love for him and the extent of his own weakness (p117)

Who of us haven’t failed?  And yet that failure need not distance us from God, but rather open up the possibilities of what God can do in us.  If we are so sure of ourself and our own abilities, there is no room for God.  When we know how far we can go, we have to leave space for him to work.

Knowing the depth of our failures, can also in its turn make us more use.

It is always those who have known ‘forgiven failure’ to whom people turn in need.  Their wounded vulnerability makes them attractive companions on life’s journey (p117)

To have known and touched failure opens us up as someone human, who knows where things can go, who cannot see the speck in their fellow travellers eye, because they know of the plank in their own (Matthew 7:3).  That makes for someone who others trust will accept them, and journey together with compassion.  For we don’t stay in failure, we move on – with God – the God of new life.

…God takes our failure into Christ, and we are part of God’s work in creation (p119)

But we remain a work as yet unfinished.

The book concludes with a poem from Ann Lewin

God’s work of art.

That’s me?

Then beauty must lie

In the eye of the

Beholder.

I feel more like

One of those statues

Michelangelo left

Half emerging

From the marble block;

Full of potential

On the verge of life,

But prisoned still

By circumstance and

Fear.

Yet part of me is free –

And yet you are still creating,

Bringing to life

The promise that is there.

Sometimes by

Hammer blows

Which jar my being,

Sometimes by

Tender strokes half felt

Which waken me to

Life.

Go on Lord.

Love me into wholeness.

Set me free

To share with you

In your creative joy;

To laugh with you

At your delight

In me,

Your work of art

I’ll leave you to read the book for yourself

Knowing What You Need

•October 24, 2012 • Leave a Comment

You know what it’s like when you want something, but you’re not sure what it is.  Something to just fill the gap.  Like being a child in a sweet shop, so much choice, and not being able to decide…

Sometimes though, being specific is important.

Mark 10:46-52

Jesus Heals Blind Bartimaeus

46 Jesus and his disciples went to Jericho. And as they were leaving, they were followed by a large crowd. A blind beggar by the name of Bartimaeus son of Timaeus was sitting beside the road. 47 When he heard that it was Jesus from Nazareth, he shouted, “Jesus, Son of David, have pity on me!” 48 Many people told the man to stop, but he shouted even louder, “Son of David, have pity on me!”

49 Jesus stopped and said, “Call him over!”

They called out to the blind man and said, “Don’t be afraid! Come on! He is calling for you.” 50 The man threw off his coat as he jumped up and ran to Jesus.

51 Jesus asked, “What do you want me to do for you?”

The blind man answered, “Master, I want to see!”

52 Jesus told him, “You may go. Your eyes are healed because of your faith.”

Right away the man could see, and he went down the road with Jesus.

I love this story, it’s full of colour and action.  Bartimaeus hears Jesus pass by, and starts shouting to him.  People tell him to stop, but that doesn’t stop him and he cries out all the louder.  Jesus calls to him, and he jumps up, throws off his cloak and runs to Jesus.  He knew what he needed – and he knew Jesus could help.  And all done with such enthusiasm.  I think I might have got fed up waiting by then, or been a bit slower to respond when Jesus did call me over.

ceridwen [CC-BY-SA-2.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/2.0)%5D, via Wikimedia Commons

Do we know what we need from God?  Are we prepared to cry out him in our need?  Will we carry on asking, even when others tell us to shut up?  Do we jump up and run when Jesus calls? Do we allow him to touch us in our darkness?

Lord,

I need you,

and what you have to give me.

Help me to acknowledge that,

to keep calling,

to respond to you,

and receive your blessing to me

Best Priest Ever

•October 23, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Rev, the fabulous BBC series http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b0178fhq

For those of us who have ever been involved in Church, I guess we can all remember a good Priest/Minister/Pastor/Leader (from here on in, when I say Priest it is a generic term for a church leader).  I particularly remember the one, who as a teenager, was just glad we were there.  He told people it didn’t matter what we wore (a big issue then, jeans were not done in church!), it mattered that we were there.  Without him, I would probably not have stayed in the church long enough for the others to have any impact.  Then there have been those who have been willing to go along with my harebrained ideas; those who have supported me; asked the difficult questions of me; comforted me and challenged me.  They were good ministers.

The writer to the Hebrews gets thinking about Priests:

Hebrews 7:23-28

23 There have been a lot of other priests, and all of them have died. 24 But Jesus will never die, and so he will be a priest forever! 25 He is forever able to save the people he leads to God, because he always lives to speak to God for them.

26 Jesus is the high priest we need. He is holy and innocent and faultless, and not at all like us sinners. Jesus is honoured above all beings in heaven, 27 and he is better than any other high priest. Jesus doesn’t need to offer sacrifices each day for his own sins and then for the sins of the people. He offered a sacrifice once for all, when he gave himself. 28 The Law appoints priests who have weaknesses. But God’s promise, which came later than the Law, appoints his Son. And he is the perfect high priest forever.

and then compares those priests to Jesus.  Because however good a good one has been, Jesus is above and beyond.

What qualities do you look for in a “priest”?  What are you looking for in God?

A priest is no one special. Sorry if that shatters any illusions!  Our role is to be given the specific task of

bringing God to the people, and the people to God.

A task, set out by Jesus.

Priests get things wrong.  They have human traits of being tired and grumpy sometimes.  They can’t be in more than one place at once.  They don’t always grasp what you are saying, or know what you need.

But Jesus, he is none of those.

For a start, he will never die, or move on.  He is in it for the long haul.

But more importantly he is the one who can save us. However good a priest is, they can’t do that, they can only point us to the one who can.  Jesus gave his everything for us. He has done nothing wrong, so he is the only one that can stand in the presence as God, innocent and faultless.  Jesus can do far more than a human priest.  He alone is worthy to stand before God – but he does that for us – and as he does so, he saves us from ourselves.

Jesus truly shows God to us, and takes us to God.  He is the priest we need.

Thank you Jesus

for giving up everything,

that I can come into God’s presence.

Thank you for being all that I need

to be able to reach out to God,

to be acceptable to him.

Thank you

for bringing God to me,

and taking me to Him.

Thank you for being all that I need

– and more