Just waiting…
Today is an inbetween day. Waiting and wondering.
For the disciples, they have just watched the one who they thought was the Messiah, the one who had come to rescue them, be killed. They saw him die in agony and humiliation. Stretched out on a cross, taunted and abused he had breathed his last.
As far as they know that is it. They did not have the benefit of knowing what was coming next. They must have been feeling confused, let down, deserted, all alone. What were they to do now? What was going to happen to them? What had they done? They had trusted Jesus and followed his ways… and now it seemed like they had got it all wrong. Had this Jesus been just one more weird and wacky prophet thinking he was the Messiah? Had they misunderstood, been carried away by wanting to believe what he said? It must have been an awful day.
We know what is coming. We know there will be victory after defeat, joy after sorrow, life after death; but today is that pause. We live with death a while longer. Sunday is coming – but today is Saturday. But God is with us in the waiting in the pain and anguish. God is the God of Resurrection, but he is the God who waits with us too. It is his son who has died, he is in the pain and despair – today or any day.
We do not have a remote God, but one who understands, and is with us in despair and pain, and in the hope of what is to come. We can always share our pain, our questioning, our grief, our feelings of stupidity with God. For he is there with us, shares our burdens, and bring that promise of a new day.
Pam's Perambulation 